MYStory

I have been on this kick since June 08 to really just change my life... doing it slowly, but also quickly so as to get the most out of it :-) . I have been losing weight and getting healthier on that front (just 20 more pounds till my goal wooohooo!). I have changed some of the people I surround myself with -- I have learned this year that I don't need to "save" everybody -- I can only remain optimistic and positive if I surround my self with like people --- constantly trying to help those see that they can do for themselves when they don't want to is a "downer" to my personality. YAY! I finally get it... right !?! :-) I also have re-evaluated my priorities and what I feel I want to still get out of the life I still have to live before me.

Now I set out for this blog and the next few to be inspiring to those finding themselves in a lull, and entertaining or heartfelt to those who are content. They will be long and short... funny and sad... but all in all it's what has gotten me to where I am right here -- right now.

First I come from some very loving parents, and I have 4 sisters (2 older and 2 younger). I am definitely the entertainer and nurturer in the family. I love to see people happy and smiling. I try to always see the positive in every situation, and this year for a short time I found myself missing that piece.


Some of the things I have been through in my life include: sexual abuse, heart condition, someone else's life or death decision in my hands, actually flat lining on a softball field( caused me to get a pacemaker at 25), being solely responsible for family monetarily at a younger age then most, cancer scare, having a daughter who was on antibiotics (in and out of the hospital) constantly from age 2 weeks to 15 months before they finally discovered her immune deficiency -- then battling all medical bills because they were sure someone other then me could claim her for insurance -- and her not really having a normal start to childhood because of how easy she gets sick, facing one of my worst nightmares, and most recently witnessing a shoot-out that could have very easily taken me out.


I have survived... and I am a STRONG Woman! ... and I realized that while I have been living life, I haven't truly been enjoying life to it's fullest. So I decided recently it was time for change, and anyone who knows me -- knows I can do drastic changes without really a thought. I have been "cleaning" up my life over the last month... evaluating what hold me back and where I need to put more attention at. I have let people go that were holding me back, and met new people to inspire me to keep going. I have LAUGHED with all that I am on the inside again. I have put myself and my daughter first. I have gone on a few dates. I have come ALIVE! My walk with Jesus has actually gotten closer, because I truly believe that I needed to go through everything I have for a reason... and while the reasons may not be forthcoming yet I know they were good ones. At some point I may give more details on the incidents and how they have changed me today, but for now I will focus on what change i have made.

One is the weight-- every woman loves when they get close to their weight goals :-)... Two is a new hair cut and new attitude -- I got all my hair cut off and will post a picture soon, I also have a much happier attitude towards where I am going... and number Three (this is the big one) --- I have gone on some dates (YAY!!!)... not something I have done since like high school :-)... now my next post will go into some of the dates... this is where it will get funny and you guys will really want to tune in :-)

enjoy your day